I Don't Write Like I Used To

I don’t write like I used to. Late week ight. Finishing my second workout of the day after spending the entirety in the motor pool. Or avoiding that one Major who knew exactly what would piss me off. To then come home, shower, and finish working on an article that initial brought some of you here.

Instead I’m 2 months removed from the Army. 8 months including the skillbridge internship and ETS leave. 14 months from dropping my REFRAD. In a strange balance of building a company and figuring out what I want out of life post-Army. I don’t write like I used to - and I’m not happy about it.

As I’ve written at least once before, writing is a form of thinking and a source of creativity. The energy I get from putting words down stirs my brain and makes me think clearer, sharper, about other things. And I HATE how little I’ve written this year. And as much as I like to write - I equally enjoy the response from you. The massive amount of discussions it had triggered on instagram or in person. I miss that.

The irony of getting out of the Army and pursuing something new is I work more now than I ever have. I am absolutely grateful for the gear the last decade taught me. The ability to ignore everything that isn’t the main thing and just go.

The only thing that matters is what my team and I are working on. My personal relationships. And my fitness.

In my old age (of 28) and recent VETERAN status (your welcome), I have purely been maintaining my level of fitness and body fat percentage. This year I’ve been enjoying slight growth in my arms, a long lived deficit that came as a sacrifice to endurance activities.

But no more. I lift 4 times per week. I run, walk, incline treadmill, cycle, and do airbike sprints 5-7 times per week. I think it’s hilarious that that is my “maintenance’. But to me maintenance is just not focusing on a specific goal to improve on, rather continue training in a way that doesn’t detract from the rest of my active goals.

And I have many.

But those certainly don’t come with the sacrifice of weakness. Or lack of energy. Because the opposite of those are addictions. Someone asked me if I work out on vacations. What a ridiculous question (lmao). Why else am I vacationing? So people know that I ran in a sick location just check my strava bro look at the waaaater. And it only takes an hour and the feeling I get is too good to not sweat at least a few times during a trip. Maybe that’s the difference in how people define vacation.

Do people really take trips to do nothing? I need to MOVE. That’s why I went to that place. I need to go places and see things. And one of my favorite ways to figure out a new city is immediately run as soon as I get there in an attempt to get lost and find my way out.

And then that experience gives me energy and creativity to write more. More things I haven’t thought about but want to research.

Such a simple question that was brought up is why do women have a tendency to have cold extremities. Well maybe it has to do with poor circulation. Well what could cause that? And now it’s a rabbit hole warranting further investigation.

I’m not saying I’m back. There’s a lot to do. And a lot more I want to do. But that being said -

Don’t be a loser. Write more. Get in the gym.

Happy Thursday

ACIDGAMBIT.